SILLYSHIP--pirate eye--
12-20-2006, 11:02 AM
They taught me what I was interested in was something that would change the way my character and soul would bring hope to me for the rest of my life. Whenever in doubt as to how to make a decision, those super heroes made it a little easier. I can say with all honesty that I have lead my life according to many priciples taught to me by comic books because I didn't have the luck to be brought up in a purely moralistic family. I know that others got it from other places, but I got it right here baby. Right here. When PP made a joke while in a stressed out indecisive moment I was right there with him.
If anyone here wants to challenge the idea that comics present a better world then go ahead.
I say, I am who I am because of comics.
My boss is a guy who pays me well, and is kind hearted, but believes in the thngs I don't.
He says things like:
Public schools should be eradicated. You aren't who you are because of schooling. you are who you are because of your own personality, your own diligence to succeed. "I didn't make it to where I am because of school. " "School does at least as much damage as it does good."
I think that if I can do one thing great before I die, do one thing really perfect, then I will have suceeded. It doesn't matter what I do, I could be happy doing anything as long as it's great.
You make decisions in life and you pay for them, if you live by a hurricane area, then you pay for it. (YEAH, this was in response to Katrina victims)
"I don't do what I do for the money, I could care less about the money"
"if it were'nt for my wife I wouldn't even charge"
Which is a lie on so many levels I'll have to start a whold new post on that.
When I asked if he would have tried to stop the nazi's had he been in 1940's Germany he hesitated so I added, Well of course you couldn't have stopped it, unless you decided to hide or try to smuggle people out, and then you'd be risking your life and your families, but you could have left. He said "I guess I would have left" But, this was a big breaking moment between us. He had stated earliar that he believed in not shaking the boat when I was asking about his opinion on the idea of the hero who sacrifices his life for the greater good. And that is why I brought on this question. In my opinion, he would've gone with the program. I cannot convey the moment properly, and so one should take my opinion of it with a grain of salt. In my heart, working for someone who even contimplates that allowing something like that to happen, is disgusting to me and I feel sick just working for him.
Once when I mentioned unions, he said "I hate unions, they are so corrupt." But when I mention the current political situation and how the president may not be truly elected and that corrupt corporate revolving door "politicians" are making money off of the war, he said that this stuff happens all of the time and it is no different than what has happened throughout history.
Early on when we met he told me he hates the idea of "Causes"
When at the corner of St. Francis and Paseo de Peralta in front of Bank of America, and that is exactly where we were, we saw a poor women with a sign held out begging money and he commented "Wow, her pockets are bulging" and made the most disgusting snicker and snide sideways look at me that I have ever witnessesed. I lilterally had to shake my head in disgust as I just wrote that. I understand that we all make decisions in our life, but once again, being one of those people who life was supposed to be fucked for, I know that it is not that easy. One wrong stance on life, one wrong reflected on memory and you're sitting on that corner. I'm lucky, not everyone is.
If there is one thing I know from growing up with a drug dealing, constant thief, manipulator, beater of women, children and the weak, liar scumbag of a father who used people his whole life and as a part of major Cuban Miami drug dealer rings it is that it is hard if not impossible to know who you are and what influences and what major traumatic experiences are affecting you when you make a decision if you had a "rough childhood" . I recently read Richard Wright's books "Black Boy" and "Native Son" and although they were very good at showing how a man fought agianst the life he was living, they were wrong to me on many levels. First of all, his early recollections were all so clear. My early recollections are all so foggy. When shit is fucked up you just don't know for sure what happened, and how to deal with it according to anyone's philosophy is even harder. But wait.....
The next part after re reading it is all me talking to myself, with many movie references.
If anyone here wants to challenge the idea that comics present a better world then go ahead.
I say, I am who I am because of comics.
My boss is a guy who pays me well, and is kind hearted, but believes in the thngs I don't.
He says things like:
Public schools should be eradicated. You aren't who you are because of schooling. you are who you are because of your own personality, your own diligence to succeed. "I didn't make it to where I am because of school. " "School does at least as much damage as it does good."
I think that if I can do one thing great before I die, do one thing really perfect, then I will have suceeded. It doesn't matter what I do, I could be happy doing anything as long as it's great.
You make decisions in life and you pay for them, if you live by a hurricane area, then you pay for it. (YEAH, this was in response to Katrina victims)
"I don't do what I do for the money, I could care less about the money"
"if it were'nt for my wife I wouldn't even charge"
Which is a lie on so many levels I'll have to start a whold new post on that.
When I asked if he would have tried to stop the nazi's had he been in 1940's Germany he hesitated so I added, Well of course you couldn't have stopped it, unless you decided to hide or try to smuggle people out, and then you'd be risking your life and your families, but you could have left. He said "I guess I would have left" But, this was a big breaking moment between us. He had stated earliar that he believed in not shaking the boat when I was asking about his opinion on the idea of the hero who sacrifices his life for the greater good. And that is why I brought on this question. In my opinion, he would've gone with the program. I cannot convey the moment properly, and so one should take my opinion of it with a grain of salt. In my heart, working for someone who even contimplates that allowing something like that to happen, is disgusting to me and I feel sick just working for him.
Once when I mentioned unions, he said "I hate unions, they are so corrupt." But when I mention the current political situation and how the president may not be truly elected and that corrupt corporate revolving door "politicians" are making money off of the war, he said that this stuff happens all of the time and it is no different than what has happened throughout history.
Early on when we met he told me he hates the idea of "Causes"
When at the corner of St. Francis and Paseo de Peralta in front of Bank of America, and that is exactly where we were, we saw a poor women with a sign held out begging money and he commented "Wow, her pockets are bulging" and made the most disgusting snicker and snide sideways look at me that I have ever witnessesed. I lilterally had to shake my head in disgust as I just wrote that. I understand that we all make decisions in our life, but once again, being one of those people who life was supposed to be fucked for, I know that it is not that easy. One wrong stance on life, one wrong reflected on memory and you're sitting on that corner. I'm lucky, not everyone is.
If there is one thing I know from growing up with a drug dealing, constant thief, manipulator, beater of women, children and the weak, liar scumbag of a father who used people his whole life and as a part of major Cuban Miami drug dealer rings it is that it is hard if not impossible to know who you are and what influences and what major traumatic experiences are affecting you when you make a decision if you had a "rough childhood" . I recently read Richard Wright's books "Black Boy" and "Native Son" and although they were very good at showing how a man fought agianst the life he was living, they were wrong to me on many levels. First of all, his early recollections were all so clear. My early recollections are all so foggy. When shit is fucked up you just don't know for sure what happened, and how to deal with it according to anyone's philosophy is even harder. But wait.....
The next part after re reading it is all me talking to myself, with many movie references.